She’s Always Here

A delightful recent post on the Feminism & Religion blog – “Let’s Try Creativity This Year” – reminded me of how often I turn to Goddess Saraswati for Her guidance and support. Every day, in fact, She is here … in the books I treasure that are everywhere in our home and in the books that I’m writing, the experiences and imaginative world that I’m compelled to share with love and compassion.

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Saraswati is part of my morning devotions and Her image beneath my monitor inspires me to listen and create. I’ve written about Her elsewhere throughout this blog and will, I’m sure, continue to do so because She is part of me, of my life, of my world.



Amber : goddess, resin, animal ?

DSC03990_3She is the fiery sap that has cooled yet retains a fluid vibration. Saraswati. Her colors are white and yellow-gold: the yellow of saffron, of golden rays, of creative spark, and, to me, she is the energy of amber’s golden flow that has paused to be seen and held like the flow of thoughts and soul into words that can be held and shared. She is Goddess of knowledge, learning, and creativity, and much more. Through her birthing waters, She is also Goddess of intuition, which combined with knowledge emerges as wisdom. She is the ultimate Creatrix releasing visionary flow into our world of form through our souls and yet the emanation is in all directions at the same instant. She is the wisdom-in-presence that is our taproot and branches at the same time.

It is no wonder that tales say Saraswati became Word; She is the Gayatri Mantra. She also moves through and beyond us by virtue of language, lyrics, our expressions of thriving. We are not meant to hoard what we have learned, but to share it with all who seek, and Saraswati reveals that Her wisdom is in us no matter what age or circumstance. We assimilate knowledge from the moment we enter the world (or even in our mothers’ watery wombs!) and we also carry in our cells the intuition of knowing, therefore we are all potentially wise and have opportunities to share this with others in our own unique ways, subtle or overt. Yes, Saraswati is Goddess of knowledge and learning — I’ve experienced first-hand Her power to help me during my final test at KSA — and I love learning for the pure joy of learning. But if and when I want to share what I’ve learned, I intend to say grace and honor Saraswati’s influence in sharing knowledge entwined with intuition to emerge as wisdom.

I don’t know if there is any ancient relationship between amber resin and Saraswati, but my intuition whispers that there is a deep vibrational connection. My logical brain first made the connection through “color” when I was wondering what gems are associated with Saraswati. And when I saw the glow of my amber resin, it was as if I just knew they were resonant — at least they are for me and, after all, isn’t that part of opening to intuition? Making our own connections? Realizing our own unique truths and not relying exclusively upon external sources of what is true for someone else? Saraswati touches me with physical intimacy when I wear amber, and this is Her reminder to open to intuition, the instinct of the soul.

AmberDreamI first met Saraswati, though, not through amber resin or Her Goddess archetype, but by the grace of the gentle soul that was my Amber-in-Collie-form, named, as it happens, Amber Dream. Together, we learned obedience exercises, but from many years of love and mistakes, Amber also tried to teach me the wisdom of seeing and knowing her nature as well as my own. We often struggled in classes because we were both naturally “soft” yet all the teachers I met took a very “hard,” disciplined, and unyielding approach to training. Nearly three decades ago, I lacked confidence, and I didn’t know myself well enough at that time to stand firm in my nature and in Amber’s nature. We endured the hardened phase of amber without treasuring the pliable, flowing phase at the beginning of amber’s creation. There is wisdom, however, in realizing — before she passed — the journey of both union and individuation that she and I had experienced together. Thank you, my dear sweet Amber.

We are blessed in the magnificent diversity bestowed upon us, the diversity that allows us to experience the Divine in such a variety of forms.


As I begin preparing for college, I say grace to the Feminine Divine,

in Her energy as Goddess Saraswati,

for Her guidance.


She is Mother of Wisdom, Goddess of Knowledge,

She is The Flow of Divine Sound into Words.

Books and Paper are Sacred to Her.

The following video is the mantra version I learned

while studying at Kripalu School of Ayurveda in 2010,

and I trust the resonance will open the space around me

to the intuitively guided learning that is bestowed by

Goddess Saraswati.

The following quote is from an interview of Manorama:

“Our job as the student is to ask what is truly being meant by the imagery.  Invoking mantras to Saraswati calls to your own creative essence asking the energy to move through you and link up with the one vibration of the universe. It is like invoking a river of energy that flows underneath you that is ever connected with all. Saraswati doesn’t determine the creation, she just gives you access to your own storehouse of creative energy that is both satisfying and fulfilling. When you are connected with your source energy your creation has an immortal and eternal quality. The body passes, the mind shifts, but something about you remains eternal. When creativity syncs with your soul, what manifests through you is eternal.”


For more information via a beautiful essay about Saraswati,

go to Sacred Wind’s Sarasvati page.

Gayatri Mantra – In Summary


This post completes my journey through the Gayatri / GaiaTree Mantra … (I made this journey with deep respect and reverence toward the Hindu religion and the Indian culture, though I am neither; my Ayurveda teachers, many of whom were Hindu, were gracious and open in offering their culture’s spirituality, philosophy, and wisdom, for which I’m grateful.)

While meditating upon and chanting the Gayatri this morning, following all these contemplations of its meaning, intention, and source, I could visualize the vibrations of each line. It was like they now hum with a sacred focus upon which I can more easily relate — the Divine Feminine. Prior to this conscious reflection into the energy of the Gayatri Mantra, I would feel purity and sacredness but could also feel some misalignment within my own vibrational field. Now, though, I feel an intimate, visceral interconnection. This is more a feeling, a heart-sensation, rather than a thought or belief. As if the words have now become pure sound within the vibrational pattern of Gaia … a pattern within which I feel strong resonance. And with this shift into feminine fields, I become open into the non-gendered Divine. 

The Gayatri Mantra is the “sonic incarnation” of the Divine, and, interestingly, is aligned with or depicted as Goddess, a further deity incarnation of Sarasvati (who is Goddess of learning, creativity, knowledge, music, arts and science). Goddess Gayatri images express the five pranas of the five tattvas, and she holds the five ayudhas (tools) that we use in our lives to fulfill our purpose. She expresses Shakti — creative energy. I knew She wasn’t absent within the Gayatri, if only I could explore her every curve by diving deep, and feel her heart opening, guiding, loving.

The Gayatri is ultimately, however, a deep yet non-specific prayer to the gender-free Source of All Existence. This is probably why it has survived for thousands of years and is chanted by people of all spiritual paths. There are many translations and interpretations of the mantra as a whole and, as I’ve seen by exploring it word-for-word, even each sound/word can be perceived in various ways — celebrating diversity of Spirit, embracing gender-free Divinity, and the tremendous Joy found in all life.

Sanskrit holds forth that the Gayatri mantra is a “sonic incarnation” of the Divine. Recognizing that the Divine rests in sound and within all variables of life that we can experience — seen and unseen, matter and energy. I treasure how the ancient seers, living in the forests, truly experienced and knew the Divine as omnipresent and fully manifest as well as being able to concurrently know this Primal Force as deities (archetypes, energy beings, or other; perhaps as created deities based upon the reflection of the Sacred we feel within our own human forms and manifested outwardly).

I realize this perception can be hard for people who like neat and tidy boxes and labels to wrap their heads around and in which to plant their beliefs. But the more I have learned and opened, the more it all makes sense. There is no way we can limit or inhibit the expression of the Divine — now or ever. People attach God or Goddess, or other names, symbols or planes of existence, to Divine. But the Gayatri doesn’t — instead, it provides the sounds of qualities, it describes, it opens a conduit to the Divine as “That” … that which is everything we try to use words to describe in order to share the Infinite with others or relate to ourselves … to share the Divine through feelings of knowing ‘That’ which is all around and within.

I explored how I might wish to recall my journey through the Gayatri; I nearly created a lengthy, complex reflection but heard a dulcet whisper from within that said “simplicity.” So for now, when I chant the Gayatri Mantra, these are the soft touchstones that resonate:

Gaia Tree of Life, Earth Goddess, Divine Mother,

you are the Sacred Fountain that gives birth to and sustains all life,

you are the Light of Love through which I celebrate diversity;

you are the Background of Joy upon which I exist and dwell within;

I humbly ask that your healing Grace be present, active and realized within all of us.


**Please Note:  I am neither Hindu or a scholar of Indian culture or religion, and I don’t profess to understand the intricacies of these beliefs for others; I am simply sharing what resonates with me.